First, I looked over my old posts from two years ago. My life has changed...a lot. A separation, a new place to live, deeper discussions with my kids, a third knee surgery, stronger connections with friends and lots and lots of searching within myself. I look happy in those old posts and I really tried to be, but now, I am living the way I have been wanting to for a very long time. I am happier on the inside. Ahhhh.
Faith in the way things are...this has really resonated with me on so many levels. Everything has happened the way it was supposed to, and I trust that in a year from now, I will again, be right where I'm supposed to be. Allowing myself to be vulnerable and open has made my life so much richer.
I always tell my students "quality over quantity" for their writing when they ask how long something has to be. I don't want to give them any limitation when it comes to their thoughts. Their true voice and feeling comes out when they can express themselves comfortably. I feel like this has carried over into my life. Now when I spend time with my kids, it's definitely more quality time. I like them more, I can tolerate Kellan's emotions better and now, I find myself wanting to hang out with them. I can do this better because I have more quality time for myself. I can nurture myself, I absolutely cherish this!
I wrote on one of the older posts that '08 was a year of stress and strain and '09 needed to be a year of relief and fortune. I knew what I was going to do before I even realized it.